WOAAW !

Jay Z & MR Hudson Alexandra Palace BEST VIDEO HD Young Forever

Mr Hudson - ‘WHITE LIES’ LIVE ON ALAN TICHMARSH SHOW!!

Mr Hudson , you rock !!!!

WOAAAAW !!!!!!!

Dynamo Showreel 1020.



I love this dude , honestly !!!!!!

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I don't like to gamble .. but if it's one thing I'll bet on .. it's myself . :)


XOXO , BJ .

Just do me one favor! Never tell me sky's the limit, when there's foot prints on the moon!! ok!!!

Once , Reverend Run said : "Just do me one favor! Never tell me sky's the limit, when there's foot prints on the moon!! ok!!!" and as far as I am concerned I find it more than true/real . What is it with people today that are always tryin' to put a line on the others dreams . You can't say STOP while I'm still walking , you can't ERASE someting I'm still writing and you definitely can't crash or burn something I'm still building .
People will never understand that . Everyone is looking up for number one , for "being on top of the world" . But one thing about being on top of the world .. it gives you a long, long way to fall . So , don't climb a mountain by stepping or crashing others happiness , make it your own way or at least try to .
So if you try to make me believe something just because you believe in , or you think it's right you're more than wrong . I have my right to make my dreams come true and believe in them . I won't live according to your standards . That's why , if you tell me now that I can't move on because you couldn't .. it won't make a diffrence .. cuz the less I need someones approval .. the further I will go in life .

Nighty-night .
XOXO , BJ .

RevRunWisdom . Part 3 .

• Nobodys worth ALL of ur tears!. But then again, Mr Right aint gonna make u cry that much no way! Take a chance!
• Those who break ur heart,, They're the 1's who challenge u 2 become the person u need 2 b! -(love stories)
• You don't need a reason to get up in the morning,, you need to be the reason other people get up in the morning!! lets go!
• Opportunities are NEVER lost! Trust me! Someone always takes the ones u miss!
• Worrying is stupid... Its like walking around with an umbrella up waitin 4 it to rain..
• Ladies:::Never try to get with a man & try to change him... u cant!
• If i could get your mind completely off of what u don't have.. (pure thankfulness) I could guarantee major breakthroughs in ur life!
• Stop tellin God how big ur problems are,, and start telling ur problems how big your GOD IS!
• Happiness is going where you KNOW its happy AND NOT LOOKING BACK!!!!
• Man when you lose your laughter you lose your footing..
• DONT u dare give up!!! (NEVER let go of that FIERY sadness CALLED DESIRE!) -P. Smith
• God can turn water into wine,, but He aint gonna turn your whining into anything! Stop dat!
• ppl talking bout they found God,, like he can get lost..
• Wanna have a happy life?? If its not fun anymore, stop playing.
• SUMTIMES the sayin “everything happens 4 a reason IS BS. SUMTIMES u gotta find dat reason & STOP dat crap from happening!
• Stop acting like that.. YOU CANT HAVE A BETTER PAST! cheer up!
• Dont take life too seriously... You'll never get out alive
• There is no i in team... but there is one in win!- Mike Jordan
• One day your life will flash before your eyes, make sure its a good look
• Dont worry your haters are just confused admirers
• negative thoughts are like birds, they'll always be flying over head, jus don't let them build a nest there
• Never Love someone so hard that you hate them.. (remember) theres a thin line between love and hate
• Trying to make somebody love you is about as useless as trying to control who you fall in love with
• You wanna get depressed stand still and start thinkin bout stuff
• When you blame others, you give up your power to change :)
• If winning doesnt matter,, then why do they keep score..
• The dude that wrote,,“Its doesnt matter if you win or lose”.. Probably lost

XOXO , BJ .

Someday - Rob Thomas (Official Music Video)

N-Dubz ft. Mr Hudson - Playing With Fire (Official Video) and lyrics

One of my fav' ! :)

I don't slip or trip when she asks me where I've been (Where you been)
One big smile on my face, zip it darling it's just you and me (You and me)
Now I'm on some Alfie behaviour, I'll call you back later
Too many fish in the sea for me
But when the lights come on, and what's her name is gone
I realise where I'm supposed to be

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story
But intuition keeps telling me
You're making a fool outta me

'Cause I'm such a good liar
Just admit it (I never did it)
Yes you did it (No I didn't)
Ay
I'm playing with fire
Just admit it (I never did it)
I know you did it (No I didn't)
Yes you did
'Cause I'm such a good liar

I can't help myself, I keep playing with fire

Thoughts running right through the night as I watch you sleep
(She's gettin' closer)
I can't help but check his text, while he's passed out next to me
(It's only a matter of time)
I'm on some CSI behaviour, who's gonna save ya
You'll be the fool when the truth comes out
So when those lights come on, and what's her face is gone
We're straight back to the same routine

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story
But intuition keeps telling me
You're making a fool outta me

'Cause I'm such a good liar
Just admit it (I never did it)
Yes you did it (No I didn't)
Hey
I'm playing with fire
Just admit it (I never did it)
I know you did it (No I didn't)
Yes you did
'Cause I'm such a good liar

I can't help myself, I keep playing with fire

Living life in disguise, can't keep up with these lies
You do anything to catch me out, but I never leave no signs
In my heart we was meant to be
But guys like me be like two or three
I can't help myself I love girls, I can't kick out playing with fire

I can't kick out playing with fire
Playing with fire
Playing with fire

She ain't goin' nowhere
Know why?

'Cause I'm such a good liar
Just admit it (I never did it)
Yes you did it (No I didn't)
Ay
I'm playing with fire
Just admit it (I never did it)
I know you did it (No I didn't)
Yes you did
'Cause I'm such a good liar
Just admit it (I never did it)
Yes you did it (No I didn't)
Oooooh
I'm playing with fire
Just admit it (I never did it)
I know you did it (No I didn't)
Yes you did
'Cause I'm such a good liar

I can't help myself, I keep playing with fire

I'm such a good liar

Liar

10 songs on my mind right now .

1. Keri Hilson - Promise in the dark
2. Omarion ft Usher - Ice Box
3. Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
4. Alicia Keys - Try sleeping with a broken heart
   
5. Fabolous ft Kobe - Imma Do it
6. The Script - I'm yours
7. Jay-Z ft Mr Hudson - Forever Young
8. Ne-yo - Never knew I needed
9. Nelly - One and only
10. Riri - Russian Roulette
    

XOXO , BJ

RevRunWisdom . Part 2 .

• In true love u want the other persons good, in false love u want the other person
• The less you need someones approval,, the further u will go in life
• If u have family u have friends,,AND,, If u have friends u have A FAMILY
• Being a hater is stupid
• Lettin go of ppl isnt saying,, I hate u.. its just sayin.. I Love Meeee!
• Attention Ladies : Its important to know when to let someone go, who's ONLY bringing you down - (Love stories)
• Happiness is not for sale... Its a thankful mindset
• Money cant buy happiness but neither can poverty....
• Independence is happiness - Susan B. Anthony
• Carve out a fun holiday.. starting now! .We are here for a good time,, not a long time.
• I prefer the errors of enthusiasm,, than to sit home COMPLAINING!!! lets go ppl!
• No1 about 2 die says “Bring me my trophys & money. NOPE! They want family & friends! (Keep ur eye on da real prize!)
• What you give you keep,, what you hold you lose
• Being happy is a habit.. unfortunately so is being sad.. choose
• I said this b4.. when u love urself u take crap from no1!! period
• LOVE URSELF enuff 2 CLEARLY c when ppl r not good 4 u! STOP STOP STOP makin excuses 4 folks! clean up ur life!
• Life's a game ppl! Get out there & play!! Don't be stingy either! IT ALL goes back in the monopoly box in the end! :)
• Somebody is in the hospital right now, begging God for the opportunity you have. Step Into Your Moment- T.D Jakes

Morning Starshine , the Earth says Hy !

XOXO , BJ .

Guy Sebastian Feat. Jordin Sparks - Art Of Love Official Video .

night nigth ! xo

uhm .. kinda' perfect ! :X

American Music Awards 2009

Rihanna's Performance At The American Music Awards

Jay-Z & Alicia Keys Performance At The American Music Awards



( you have to love them !!! )

Janet Jackson's Performance Intro For The American Music Awards

Jennifer Lopez Performance At The American Music Awards! (She Falls On Her Boot-tay But Played It Off Nicely)

Alicia Keys Solo Performance At The American Music Awards 2009

RevRunWisdom .

• Be you.. Everybody else is taken- Oscar Wilde
• Trust in God! I dont know what the future holds.. but I know WHO holds it...
• If your partner's insecure.. Secure em up..
• Suspicion is the termites of relationships..
• Some ppl think holding on to ppl & things makes u strong.. but very often its letting go that strengthens u
• To love someone is 2 wait for them, but u MUST also love ur self enuff, 2 know when 2 walk away -(love stories)
• TRY to be happy peaceful & calm...You jus do the possible,, God will handle the impossible
• Those who have patience can have WHATEVER they want... Giving up\ Giving in is NOT an option!
• If u have many friends,, its obvious ur a very forgiving person.. real talk :)
• (Take chances ppl) We fail faaaarrr more by timidity, than by over-daring..
• its not so much that u miss past relationships,, u just miss the person u thought they was
• People who lie for you, will also lie to you... Please believe it!
• The key to any lasting relationship is.. knowing when to be close,, and knowing when to give room..
• Love gives,, Lust takes..
• Being smart is cool, (BUT) a good heart is better than all the good heads in the world (kindness counts)
• The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held on to.. real talk
• Ladies:: Trying to forget someone u love, is like trying to remember someone u never knew... Impossible!
• When u get kicked in ur butt,, at least u know u were out in front! -J. Maxwell
• Life gives to the giver and takes from the taker
• Find what you love and stick to it like glue!!! -(Daily love)
• Being positive is a choice! Atmosphere filled with negativity leaves a heavy burden.
• If u can practice having fewer wants.. u can truly become the happiest
• People might try 2 stop u temporarily.. BUT! Only u can stop u permanently! Keep going ppl! ur on ur way!
• Let no1 become ur everything, becuz if they walk away u'll have nothing
• hate will take u further than u wanna go, keep u longer than u wanna stay, & charge u more than u wanna pay..
• Be careful who u diss.. You never realize how much u care about some1, UNTIL they dont care about u no more.. im jus sayin
• when its all said and done, never let more be said than done! ...
• Do not lie 2 ur loved ones! The truth hurts 4 a little while, but lies hurt 4ever!
• lookin 4 Mr perfect?.. nobodys perfect :)
• Sadness may cause u 2 build walls,, but dont do it,, Those same walls can keep out joy also.
• You were born with wings,, why in the HELL would you prefer to crawl thru life!
• STOP trying 2 force things! You DO NOT wanna be where the Grace of GOD is NOT!
• Ladies:::: Dont cry if a relationship falls apart.. The next man will probably be checkin 4 a gal wit a smile! :) stay up!
• When u luv some1 u'd give up everything 4 them,, but if they loved u bac they'd neva ask u 2!

XOXO , BJ

The Middle Men (Feat. Lil Scrappy & Bobby V) - Show Me Love Official Video .

show me looooove . :X

He's one of my fav' . <3

Pictures via@BillionaireBoysClubBlog

La Roux - I'm Not Your Toy Official Video .

You don't want me .. you just like the attention .

Toni Braxton (Feat. Trey Songz) - So Yesterday .

Gave you the benefit of the doubt .. till you showed me what your all about .. true colours came out .

Keri Hilson - I Like Official Video .

I, i, i, and the world around us wont stop turning to night .. I like, I like !!!!!

Riri - Russian Roulette .

And you can see my heart beatinggggggggg .. you can see it through my chest !
(..) And then I get a scary thought .. hat he’s here means he’s NEVER loooost !


Great one .

Rihanna's Rated R Launch Party [36 Min Concert]

Riri , you're amazing !

Chris Brown - Crawl Official Video

via@Youtube

One of my favourite songs .

Adevaratele arme ale succesului

Daca ar fi sa consult Dictionarul Limbii Romane , as gasi "succesul"definit cam asa : Rezultat favorabil, obținut ca urmare a depunerii unui efort fizic sau intelectual; reușită; izbândă. 2) apreciere a calităților (unei persoane sau a unui obiect). Daca ar fi dupa mine insa , succesul este echivalentul cheii unei vieti implinite .
Tocmai de aceea de-a lungul timpului , s-a dovedit a fi cea mai de pret dorinta , cel mai dorit vis la care 99,9% din oameni adera . Fie ca e vorba de rolul principal din sceneta de sfarsit de an , de diploma de bacalaureat , de licenta , de job-ul visat , de familia mult dorita .. fiecare om are dreptul de a interpreta succesul dupa propria vointa/mentalitate. In ceea ce ma priveste succesul este acel amestec dintre : continuarea studiilor in strainatate , un job pe masura , zambetul parintilor mei alaturat de o viata din care sa nu le lipseasca nimic ( drept rasplata pentru copilaria de vis pe care mi-au daruit-o mie si surorii mele ) , credinta , sanatate si o familie fericita .
Pentru a putea surprinde succesul din plin insa , fiecare dintre noi trebuie sa apeleze mai mult sau mai putin la anumite "arme" . Plecand de la acest lucru , am sa fac o mica lista (in ordinea importantei) care sa surprinda "armele" succesului , bineinteles , in ceea ce ma priveste .



1. O copilarie implinita .

Intotdeauna am fost de parere ca o viata cu adevarat implinita pleaca de la o copilarie fericita , o copilarie de vis . E perioada aceea in care desi toti au impresia ca nu stii nimic , atunci incepi sa intelegi totul , sa faci legaturi si tocmai de aceea , cu ceea ce pleci din copilarie ramai toata viata . Ai o anumita mentalitate in ceea ce priveste lumea cu totul .. oamenii , familia , prietenii , sentimentele , credinta , adevaratele valori pe care ti le construiesti de mic . Atunci se coase totul .. e un fel de start dar de la care totusi .. pleci in fie ce capitol al vietii . E important sa stii ce e cel mai important in viata , sa-ti impui prioritatile , sa-ti eliberezi mentalitatea , iar dupa parerea mea , toate acestea pornesc de undeva din copilarie . Atunci cunosti lumea..si daca ai cunoscut lumea cu zambetul pe buze , iti este mai usor sa-i zambesti vietii atunci cand totul in jurulu tau cade .. atunci iti dai seama ca ai neconditionat acel sprijin pe care te poti inclina oricand . Nu pot spune insa ca o copilarie mai putin fericita nu te poate determina sa-ti doresti succesul , sa ajungi sus . Din contra , poate veti spune cu totii ca o astfel de copilarie te poate motiva sa iti doresti mai mult . E adevarat dar in ceea ce ma priveste , atunci cand ma gandesc la anii copilariei mi-e imposibil sa nu-mi doresc sa-mi fie la fel de bine ca atunci , sa am o familie la fel de fericita , sa am succesul parintilor mei , sa-mi invat copiii sa se iubeasca intre ei la fel cum eram eu cu sora mea . De cand m-am maturizat mi-am dat seama cu adevarat de ceea ce-mi doresc , vreau sa-mi retraiesc copilaria prin cea a copiilor mei . Vreau ca totul sa fie perfect , exact asa cum era atunci . Lucru ce ma motiveaza zilnic , sa-mi doresc mai mult , sa aduc succesul in viata mea , pe usa din fata .

picture via@DeviantArt




2. O mentalitate deschisa .


Dupa parerea mea , e mai mult decat important sa stii sa privesti lucrurile dintr-o anumita perspectiva in asa fel incat sa te ajute , sa te ridice si sa nu te infunde si mai mult decat esti . O mentalitate pregatita sa accepte si cazaturi , si lovituri de pietre si infrangeri .. dar mai ales sa-si asume castigurile si esecurile in acelasi timp , e punctul forte pe care fiecare persoana ar trebui sa si-l permita . E important sa te ridici atunci cand trebuie sa cazi , sa lupti cand toti te cred invins . Succesul e o lupta continua pentru ca azi poti fi in fruntea tuturor iar maine sa ajungi ultimul . A avea succes nu e tocmai o lupta grea , e accesibil tuturor as putea spune , dar a te mentine pe acea linie a succesului e mai mult decat greu .. si pentru asta , trebuie sa fii deschis , sa intelegi riscurile , sa-ti asumi greselile si mai ales sa inveti din ele . Succesul e mai mult decat o lupta castigata e un drum pe care alegi sa mergi .. sau nu .


picture via@DeviantArt



3. Oameni care vor fi mereu "acolo"/ Increderea in tine insuti .

Gandul ca ai intotdeauna pe cineva care sa te sprijine cand pamantul iti cade de sub picioare e unul din elementele cheie ale succesului . Un element ce iti confera incredere in tine si care te ajuta sa mergi mai departe indiferent de situatie . E important sa stii ca va fi mereu cineva acolo cand ceilalti nu vor face nimic altceva decat sa arunce cu pietre in tine . E o altfel de siguranta , una ce-ti asigura sentimentul de castig oricand si oriunde . E simplu sa-ti doresti sa detii controlul , sa ai succes , sa vrei sa fii mereu sus , dar e destul de greu sa-ti capeti acea incredere in tine , sa fii sigur pe tine .. si pentru asta , e important sa stii ca sunt mereu acele persoane langa tine care vor avea incredere in tine si care te vor determina mereu sa vrei sa ai succes , sa castigi .

picture via@DeviantArt



4. O imagine impunatoare/demna de respect .

Simpla idee de "succes" , "om de succes" te duce cu gandul la o persoana sigura pe ea , hotarata , mereu gata sa ia deciziile dintre cele mai bune si cele mai portivite si care impune respect prin simpla prezenta . E drept , trebuie sa lupti pentru un asemenea titlu , dar dupa parerea mea , imaginea te ajuta foarte mult , intr-o epoca in care oamenii sunt alesi sa lucreze dupa imagine , dupa chip , bineinteles , nu sunt adepta acestei ideei , dar lumea nu se invarte in jurul meu , si pentru asta , trebuie sa ma adaptez cerintelor . E un atuu , sa stii sa folosesti atitudinea potrivita , sa impui respect pentru ca atunci cand dai impresia ca te poti modela dupa cum iti cer ceilalti esti primul care va fi calcat in picioare . Eu una , cand intalnesc astfel de persoane , puternice , sigure pe ele , ma ambitoneaza , ma fac sa-mi doresc si mai mult sa lupt , sa imi doresc sa ajung cineva .






Bineinteles , ar mai fi multe de adaugat pentru ca a avea succes e o insusire destul de complexa , pe care cu totii dorim sa ne-o atribuim mai devreme sau mai tarziu . Dar mie una mi se pare un lucru esential de la care niciun om n-ar trebui uite sa-si doreasca sa-l obtina , e important sa stii ca ai pentru ce sa lupti , sa vrei sa ajungi sus , sa fii puternic , practic sa inveti sa traiesti . Asa ca , succesul meu e un drum pe care aleg sa merg , intr-adevar , nimeni nu mi-a zis ca va fi usor , dar cu totii stim ca merita .


XOXO , BJ .

Diddy (Feat. Dirty Money) - Love Come Down

Diddy totally rocks it !!!!!

via@worldstarhiphop

Romania sucks .. so make a diffrence !

Daca te-ai decis cu cine votezi, felicitari si succes. Daca aveai de gand sa stai acasa pentru ca n-ai cu cine, AL MEU ESTI! Eu sunt canditatul tau: Presedintele Vot Nul. via@VOTNUL

TOOTH FAIRY - Trailer

Looks like Dwayne Johnson doesn't believe in fairy tales , too bad for him cause they are for real . That's why a bad deed on the part of a tough minor-league hockey player results in an unusual sentence: He must serve one week as a real-life tooth fairy.

New York I Love You - trailer (2009)

As far as I'm concerned , i love New York .. so I'll definitely watch this movie .
An anthology film joining several love stories set in one of the most loved cities of the world, New York.

2012 - Official Trailer

An epic adventure about a global cataclysm that brings an end to the world and tells of the heroic struggle of the survivors.

Rihanna - Wait Your Turn

Riri's back ! This girl rocks it !!!

via@wshh

Why Did I Get Married Too (Starring Janet Jackson) [Movie Trailer]

Official Trailer for Why Did I Get Married Too (April 2010), the sequel to Why Did I Get Married (2007), starring an ensemble cast including Janet Jackson.

via@http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhyHmZqIaB2iek7l8t

Robin Thicke Ft. Jay Z - Meiple (Me I Play)

I gotta say , I love Kanye !

Let's make it last . :)

Lately I understood that life is too damn precious to let it go , to live it in tears , memories , wishes and nothing real . We have to step up and put the smile where it used to be tears . I know it's hard to fight the things we're afraid of .. that's why sometimes we need a little help . As I've been told , there's no shame in being afraid , what you've got to do is figure out what you're afraid of , because when you put a face on it , you can beat it .. or even better yet .. you can use it . Play that song you love , listen those lyrics that make you feel better , watch those movies that make you dream and believe that anything is possible .. be surrounded by those people that make you feel accomplished and leave behind those who couldn't make it to the present cause life is measured in more than time or seconds .
I want to start over , to put a higher price on family , friendships , happy moments . Do the same , you'll fell better .

XOXO , BJ .

New One ! :)

These days I realised that somehow , saying goodbye , and letting someone or something to go , is the best way to be you again , to win yourself . When you try so hard to bring something back , or to hold on to something .. and you finally get it .. doesn't feel so great .. it's like everything is getting worst . That's why this time I won't say I'm sorry twice . I just won't . This time.. I'm gonna let it go ... even if it's a part of me , 30% of the most beautiful memories of my entire life , a part of who i become today . I said I'm sorry but you didn't want to listen .. you just didn't . I won't say I'm happy , cuz I'm not .. my heart felt apart , but like i said .. I tried to make it work , but I won't fight anymore this time . You made it clear to me , we can't be what we used to be . It's hard letting this go .. it feels like is sliping away from me .. But I'm gonna say goodbye as if it won't break my heart .. even if it does .. and in one of a hell way ! We grew apart .. but I quess that what we've become today it's waaay to far from what we used to be , how we used to think . We used to make the world go around , we actually owned the world .. but today , the world is getting in our way .. and more importantly .. between us . It's true when they say that everything has it's end , sooner , or later . I wanted to make it clear to my mind.. to my heart , to who I am today , and finally , it did . I'm gonna keep you forever with me , but just in my old memories , out there we used to be us , the real us .
Without noticing , I found what you used to have in other people , and maybe you found in them what i used to have , too . I'm gonna start all over again , but this time , i know that the person who's standing next to me , we'll be the one forever , the one that won't get stucked in the middle , that wont't take the wrong way when the distance happens to appear . And if doesn't .. I'm gonna remind myself that "I've been there , done that " .. and I'll move on , cuz this is what life's about . Taking chances , risks .. letting people in , letting people go . Make it the best time of my life in every second .


To you , my friend and to what i used to be . Things will never be that way again , but that's just how it goes , people change .

Forever young .. !

I had a crancky mood today , but i remembered a song that I really love and that always makes me feel like i have nothing but time .. precious time . Jay-Z ft. Mr Hudson - forever young .. it's true that the real song is also great but this one is greater . This song reveals my strongest wish . I want time could stay still . "So we live a life like a video when the sun is always out and you never get old and the champagne’s always cold and the music is always good" .

What's wrong with this time machine ? Especially with its big red STOP button ? Tomorrow is a big day .. College . It sounds good but I don't know.. it's also scary . I feel so timeless .. I wanna go back and press rewind and stop at that time when everything used to be so easy and great .. without any worries and alwasy surounded by the people I love . I guess highschool is really over .. with all its great memories , crazy teachers , best friends or ex best friends , love stories .. Now that i realise thet everything has a finish line ,, it's so hard to let it go , to move on especially when the people I love aren't near me anymore . But I gotta keep my calm .. start smiling and be positive ! This is something we all have to go through and as far as I know .. nobody died because of it . So what if I have to deal with new situations , that's what life is about . "Every age has its beauty" - My mom used to tell me that all the time . If my old friends won't keep up with me in the present , that means they never were . If somt things will be lost on the way , that means they didn't ment anything for me .. otherwise I'd still have them with me . But I'll remember highschool as the image of my favourite teacher .. my first boyfriend who I actually tought was the one .. my best friend that will always in my heart no matter what . That's why life is also about changes .. new beginnings .. finish lines .. memories .. taking chances .

I just hope that I'll still keep with me the best memories and never forget about them .. I need them to remember me of how I used to be .. what I used to love .. and what made me happy those days . I'm gonna need sooo much this part of my life.. my childhood .. the best one i might was .

I wanna be young forever , I wanna keep my dearest memories always on my mind .. my friends near me and never get old ! Hey , Tuff Guy ! I'm talking to you , do something ! But since I can't always have what I want I'll try to make this time , the best of my life . So what if i have to fall , to cry or to lose people ? I'll still fight to reach to the headline !!! I'll start with a smile and a promise . I promise I'll make my future as beautiful as my past ! Yeah !!

Meanwhile I'll listen' to Honor Society - Where are you now . Love that song , it's perfect for my feelings at this very moment !

So , I'll make a toast !! To my favorite teacher who told me never give up ! To my 5th grade crush who I thought I really loved !To the girls I missed and the boys we kissed !To my ex-best friends don't know how we grew apart ! To my favorite band and sing-alongs in my car ! To the face I see in my memories! To my first boyfriend I thought for sure was the one !To my last boyfriend sorry that I screwed it up ! To the ones I loved but didn't show it enough ! And I'll never see those days again.. and things will never be that way again .. but that's just how it goes .. people change, but I know I won't forget you ! To the ones who cared and who were there from the start ! To the love that leftand took a piece of my heart ! To the few who'd swear I'd never go anywhere ! .. That means .. college , here I come ! Highschool , I'll keep you with me , but for now .. so long my friend !

Try to smile ! Look in the mirror , and ask the one you see if he's ok with what he sees ! If you want this world to be a better place .. start with you ! Don't forget , life .. is made of heartbeatings , be careful , don't stop them to soon !

Just some picture perfect day to last a whole lifetime and it never ends cuz all we have to do is hit rewind .. forever young is in your mind leave a mark that can’t erase neither space nor time so when the director yells cut, I’ll be fine, I’m forever young …

XOXO , BJ

Michael , I want you back !

Ok , this made my cry a lot ! :(
Mike , I love you !

People leaving .. People staying . Which one is you ? Which one is me ?

Remember those moments when everything that's left for you is the smile and the support of the one person who's always there to count on .. well , keep remember that cause in the next second , the first thought is about the fact that people always leave , no matter what , no matter how or for if they're ever going to be back again . But thinking again , it's easier to keep believing that "this time" everything's gonna be diffrent .

After all .. we all wish to find that person on which we can always relay on when we have to deal with the hardest and the worst moments of our lives .. But when our lives got like this because of that person , it's the damn right moment to decide not to ever trust people .. or to learn how to forgive and move on . I guess it's up to you to chose . :) He/She is as human as you are , that means you can easly trade places . Don't judge them , try to forgive or just move on and let it be .. without ever going back again .

Get this once and for all .. people always leave but when somebody is leaving , in the next moment you'll have in front of you" the new" one , ready to stand out for you , no matter what . Don't blame yourself , this is life . But this doesn't mean you have to be the one that pulls out everyone from your own life . Trust people , even if sometimes hurts , that's a big smile wating for you in the next days .Take risks , live , love , laugh but just don't let it go , don't give up so easly .

Some people are like those birds when they're here wo make you're summer even greater , but when the fall comes , they run out from the rain and the cold . I guess you are the tree , waiting for the summer to come , cause you know for sure that those birds will be back next summer , in matter of fact , that's what makes you get through the winter . But try as hard as you can not to be the bird which's always leaving cause you may never know when the old tree my find another birds to sing for him or when he'll be cut and you'll have no place to go back .

Don't forget live it as if tomorrow isn't suppose to show up again !
Rise and shine , early birds , what have you decided ?
XOXO , BJ .


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I'm 20 since today...I'm getting old and that SUCKS , my friend !

Now that I'm twenty I've got this weird feeling of losing the control of time . I wanna go back , I wanna be a child againbut I guess this one won't work on the reality part . It's like I'm not a girl anymore , I'm a grown up and I hate the fact that i have to let this behind cause I don't want to .. I mean I really , really don't want to !
Hey , you , the one working at the mechanical part at time's control , help me out here ! Can't you see I'm in need ? Press the button , do something .. anything !
Yeah , what's really all the "time" thing ? What's made of ? Some of us are measuring it in seconds , hours , days , weeks , months , years , decades , etc and the onthers .. in happy moments , tackings risks , memories , tears , childhood , dreams .. Now , tell me , who's the one that wins more ? The one who knows every second of time's structure , worring about passing to fast through it or the one that's not counting it buy living it ? Yeah .. i thought so too . So I guess I'm not supposed to worrie that much and to start living ? But what should I do with the memories .. those who are keep coming back everytime my mind is free or a bad thing happen ? It's hard to let go to my childhood .. to my best years of my life .. ! I'm gonna feel so empty without it . God , I feel timeless ! But you know what ? I'm gonna start wearing a smile more often , and whenever I'll smile I'll bring out the best memories and with them .. I'll learn to live in the present knowing that the future will be as great as the past was . It's like 3:17 am in the morning .. that's means I'm 20 year old and 3 hours .. and very sleepy . I'm gonna have to go to bed , this night I'll dream about something that someday soon will become reality, i hope . God , please don't forget about me , and my candle wish .

Nighy night kiddies !
xoxo , BJ

Just wondering ..

I always want more , something I don't have or something that's wrong . That's why life is more than decisions , is about feelings , about those moments when you feel so happy and accomplished that you can fly so high that the whole world becomes too small for you . We all love to smile , to live the happiest moments , to achieve the most beautiful moments and to have near us the people we love .. but there comethose moments when the sun forgets to shine and the sky falls on your head and it feels soooo damn heavy .. that's when we all look at the one we love and we realise that those happy moments were ment to be lived as if the next second everything will fall apart . Why do I always want something that's wrong for me and take those decisions that at the beginning feel so right but the next minute I know .. I feel so miserable . I guess life's also about learning , being close to your dearest friend and living the memory that brings us the most precious smile . Turning back the time is one of the most wanted wishes . What is it with time ? Why can't we enjoy the present without being followed by the past or pressured by the future . I guess we all have three ghosts . The first one is the one of happy times , always a plesure to have it close . The second one is the one of regrets , always ready to mess with the present . And the last one , but not the least is the one that brings us in our mind the persons we don't have anymore near us , that's the one that we want to keep real close .

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You know those moments when you feel that life is throughing you away and that you feel powerless with every breath you take ? I think all of us have to pass at least once through it . But I never understood why . What's with this phrase that everyone talks about : "You have to make mistakes and to fall .. so you could actually gain what you really want . What if you can't raise up anymore and you keep falling and falling ? What if you won't learn anything and you'll keep doing mistakes until you get used to it and you don't want to fight it anymore or to gain it ? What if all that happens ? Life has always been about decisions , about feelings , reasons , memories , wishes but when it comes to falling apart .. life becomes a brigde from where you fall knowings the fact that you won't be able to swim or you forgot how to do it .. and the drowing part .. becomes the reality that you've been hiding from .


So .. that's why I'll try with every day going by .. to keep my faith in myself and to always remember that life is all about the present ...


xoxo , BJ .

The Guy in the Glass

by Dale Wimbrow, (c) 1934

When you get what you want in your struggle for pelf,

And the world makes you King for a day,

Then go to the mirror and look at yourself,

And see what that guy has to say.

For it isn't your Father, or Mother, or Wife,

Who judgement upon you must pass.

The feller whose verdict counts most in your life

Is the guy staring back from the glass.

He's the feller to please, never mind all the rest,

For he's with you clear up to the end,

And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test

If the guy in the glass is your friend.

You may be like Jack Horner and "chisel" a plum,

And think you're a wonderful guy,

But the man in the glass says you're only a bum

If you can't look him straight in the eye.

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,

And get pats on the back as you pass,

But your final reward will be heartaches and tears

If you've cheated the guy in the glass.

In grateful memory of our father, the author, Dale Wimbrow 1895-1954

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